I'm in Richmond, VA staying with a good friend and hitting the town. Last night we hit the town for drinks at the favorite watering holes. I felt like my happy self there for a moment. Sitting with friends talking about old stories and new ones made me feel apart of something that clicked again. Shots were poured. I was the center of attention for all the single guys. Wanting to buy me drinks as we talked candidly about our lives and what kind of things we were into. Hugs were thrown all around me as people welcomed me back to Richmond like I lived here for years. They all want me to move here.
"You're Awesome Jennifer! Why can't you live here. Richmond loves you."
I kissed the guy I was flirting with goodbye, knowing I'd never to see him again. I gathered with the group of friends I was with and we stumbled back. Laughing the arm and arm the whole way. I went to bed feeling light and accomplished.
Today I hit the peak of the coaster and now I'm falling. The substance that was holding me up last night in melting away into darkness. I think, if I stay here nothing would really change for me. Where is the reason for ME to be here? There is no purpose. They only want me there for their own reasons.
It was fun to share a moment of someone's life who is stable and moving forward. It felt good to know that I still can feel that way. Only now I need to know my own place; find my own platform to stand on. Then invite them to come share it with me.
"You're Awesome Jennifer! Why can't you live here. Richmond loves you."
I kissed the guy I was flirting with goodbye, knowing I'd never to see him again. I gathered with the group of friends I was with and we stumbled back. Laughing the arm and arm the whole way. I went to bed feeling light and accomplished.
Today I hit the peak of the coaster and now I'm falling. The substance that was holding me up last night in melting away into darkness. I think, if I stay here nothing would really change for me. Where is the reason for ME to be here? There is no purpose. They only want me there for their own reasons.
It was fun to share a moment of someone's life who is stable and moving forward. It felt good to know that I still can feel that way. Only now I need to know my own place; find my own platform to stand on. Then invite them to come share it with me.
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